Experiencing a lack of Balance
Sleep? What is that? For the past three months I cannot tell you just how many hours of sleep I have gotten. Not safe, right? Tell me about it! See, I’m a Certified Travel Consultant, who also has a full time Marketing Position and I’m a single parent! I also attend classes at my local church twice a week; I teach my daughters Bible class once a month and I’m a part of a virtual Bible study twice a week and being a perfectionist doesn’t help my situation in the least bit. I know this may not seem like much seeing as we have so many supermoms out there that are married, work a full time job and are full time students. I commend those women, but I don’t know their struggle. I only know mine and mine lacks balance!
Don’t get me wrong, I love what I do, helping others and I love my little girl, but everything I’m trying to do to grow as a person has left me with little time for sleep, my relationship and social life! Ha! What am I saying, I like being at home! Give me a good movie or a good book with some of my favorite foods and a warm blanket right out of the dryer and I’m groovy, but I don’t have time to even do that! Seriously though, my schedule is so booked that I don’t know what day it is unless I check my phone and I check it multiple times because I’ll forget! I know you get it because I can’t be the only one.
Speaking of my phone, it has become my life unfortunately and if something is not in my calendar on my phone, it’s safe to say it’s not getting done that day because I’ll forgot about it or it will get pushed back because life happened and I couldn’t get to it! I have a to-do list on my phone, on a napkin in my dining room, on my refrigerator and in my car! Just sad, but it’s how the last few months have been for me. When did I get so unorganized? Why did I commit to so much and how did I allow myself to get off balance?
See I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS) better known to me as painful cycles and this particular day I just couldn’t make it out of bed. I was forced to lie there and think about these questions and figure out a strategy on how I could do better. One day I was listening to Renee Swope from Proverbs 31 ministries on K Love Radio and she was talking about how she didn’t have time to read her Bible. Her to-do was so long and just the thought of doing one more thing would make her want to scream. I could definitely relate to that and then it hit me, my time with God was suffering. I got so consumed in my own agenda that I wasn’t taking the advice that I had given to most people. We need quality time with God.
So I began to pray or vent about the pain I was in and how I just did not have balance and how upset it made me. I told God that I needed Him in every way because lack of sleep had made me moody and I had tried to make time for everything and everybody, but Him. The time I once used to spend with him I used to work my business or network at an event. I felt like I wanted to cry. Then I remembered seeing this article about balance on the MadionJaye website called, “15 simple tips to balance your mind, body and soul” and one of the tips is to smile and simply be grateful. I was so caught up in complaining I hadn’t took the time to be grateful for everything I had accomplished so far and everything that was going right in my life.
Since that day I’ve been reading my Word more, making time for God and taking things a day at a time. I prioritize my day so that I don’t feel overwhelmed when things don’t get done. I get up earlier so that I have time to mediate and worship and that really sets the tone for my day. As for as my minor task like laundry and cleaning, I set aside a day for that, but most important I schedule “me” time and that can consist of quiet time or time to hang out. I don’t want to forget to live and enjoy the moments that I have because they go fast. I’m not sure who said it, but I remember a saying that goes, “you can’t take care of anyone from your grave” and so I’m doing much better now, but it’s still something I am working on daily! I even schedule sleep now! HA! What is it that you do to bring balance to your life?