"Off Balance"

Lately I’ve been feeling a little off balance. I recently started a new job. Obviously this is a good thing, but the problem is that I don’t have a set routine yet, or daily habits that I follow every day. Now, I understand that I just started my new job and I have to get used to this new adjustment. As a result things are not going to be exactly how I want them to be just starting off. I would like to have the feeling that everything in my life is controlled and well in balance. I don’t like the feeling of having life dictate my every move. I don’t want to go through life letting time go by and missing valuable moments because my life was unorganized and out of whack. Valuable time may be wasted. This shouldn’t happen because I have not been efficient with my time. I also want to feel good; I need to be in control of what goes on. For this reason I feel like I have lost balance. I am not completely turned over, but I know that things are not as efficient as they could be.


I will give you a little background about my life to help you understand. A few years ago I lived in California. I lived right outside of LA and things were wonderful. During this time, I was extremely happy, had a great routine and fantastic habits. I was extremely focused on my health and well-being. I juiced every day, planned my meals out for the entire week and exercised. I did all of these things religiously. Looking back, I realize that things were a lot easier when I lived in LA. My life was more carefree. Taking care of your health and body was more widely accepted. This cultural lifestyle was just what I needed to get my life on track, and I did.


Fast forward a year and a half, I moved to Chicago. This is where things got super tough and challenging for as long as I can remember. A part of me feels like I’ve been off balance since I’ve made this transition. Whenever I think about a time in my life when I feel like I had it all figured out, I always think back to my time in California.


Around this time last year, I started doing yoga and meditation. I felt extremely stressed and needed an outlet that would allow my body to heal. I found a place of stability and calmness. One thing that has been hard for me to combat is how to get back to that place of serenity. How do I transform and take back my life to get back to that place of balance? This question is what drove me to write this post. I know that there are other people out there just like me that are struggling with the same issues. I know what I am supposed to do, but it is always hard for me to understand why I can’t actually do what will make me feel better.


For example, when I feel sluggish I know I need to drink green juices and detox and when I have low energy I need to eat more vegetables and exercise. This is the balance that I continually seek. I know that I would instantly feel better if I put these habit into daily practice. These are all things that I should do every day, yet I don’t. I understand that I need to make time for myself. I need time to think and sort things out in order to maintain a grip on the things that are happening in my life. The sooner I do this, the sooner I will be back on track and can be at Zen once again. I can only hope that this time I don’t let it go.


By: Rachel M. Roberts via EIC Le'Keshia Smith