"No Rainbow Without Rain"
For the past two weeks I have felt a strong sense of separation. I’ve felt extremely sad because of it and couldn’t get the urge to write. My thoughts were plenty and I was definitely in my feelings, but my heart was aching. So many have reached out to me to say they feel lost, don’t know their purpose or that they haven’t accomplished all that they’ve wanted by a certain age. Then there are those who wake up in the middle of the night for what seems like no reason. I can relate to them all.
During this time of year it seems as though everyone is evaluating their life. We have the New Year approaching and we’ll soon start to see the “New Year, New me” trailing down our newsfeed. Also because of the holidays, everyone seems so cheery, but not everyone. During the holidays, it can be fairly depressing and can bring up more negative feelings that one would like. Whether you don’t have a family to spend the holidays with or whether you’ve lost a loved one and it’s hard to celebrate, the holidays aren’t always so warm and fuzzy.
I’m a dreamer and for the past month I have known that some people I care about would depart from my comfy little bubble. I’ve dreamt it, felt it and I wasn’t ready for it. I’ve also felt the heartache of those hurting right now from a broken heart, a lost loved one, health and financial problems and just plain ole unexplained depression. I don’t know why God has given me such a heart for others, but I know it has to do with my purpose on Earth.
If you will let me encourage you, I would hold your hands and look you in the eye and tell you that no matter what your faith is, YOU were born with a purpose. You would not be here if that were not so. God says in Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans that I have for you …plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” You may have had a rough life and it may be still, but it is all for a purpose. I know this to be true. You don’t have to know it all right now or to even understand what you can’t make sense of. If you must grieve, grieve, but pick yourself back up because someone is counting on YOU. Yes, YOU!
If the holidays are tough for you, do something to change that. Make a new memory no matter how small it may be. You can change it if you so choose. Smile, even when you don’t want to because you never know who may need it. So many consider suicide around this time of year, but someone smiled at them with their eyes and it made all the difference because someone noticed them. Lend a helping hand because it makes you feel great to do good and help others.
Be someone’s holiday cheer and if you need some help just say this prayer.
God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, The Courage to change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference. “Serenity Prayer”.