lets start with not eating: growing up in poverty you body is trained to develop eating issues. from having water drinking contest with my brothers and sisters to knowing the local soup kitchens to eat at so you can have one meal for the day, ive experienced this and more. jumping right into the entertainment business that was so high on " body type and image" didnt help either, i started rooting back to my mentally trained ways into not eating, and running off 7 cups of coffee in one day , i did everything from starving myself to diet pills all because i was rooted on self hatred.
eating unhealthy is the same thing, started by growing up having nothing to eat to eating junk food too stay full for cheap and went into my adulthood being up happy in my relationship so all i did was eat unhealthy ( and yes vegetarians can be unhealthy too). health is so important!
this week i have literally had people comment on my pictures saying "we want you with more meat on your bones" and "you are too skinny now"., these remarks are extremely hurtful.i like the new me, the healthier, stronger me. the Madison jaye who eats 3 times a day , the madison who limits her sugar intact, walks two miles every day and drinks more water, i like the Madison who takes her vitamins daily and mediates for her mental wellness too. i know you guys are coming from a place of love, however please remember i am human too. i am not perfect i miss weeks at the gym, i slip up and eat taco bell... but i know that this is all a process.
i love the new me, i may be smaller but this time i did it the right way and i am happy !!!!! my happiness means everything to me and its taken me so long to get here. as i send all of you guys love and light i simply ask for your encouragement as i continue on this journey, not hurtful comments... bc i am a woman too and like every other woman on this planet my weight is a sensitive topic.
i love the new me because she is happy mind, body spirit ... she is progressing and getting healthier and stronger day by day. i love the new me because it took me so long to find her...to find myself. love and light .
Namaste & Be Blessed.