"Fire Conference was LIT"
I screamed, I cried and fell to my knees. Some people would say it doesn’t take all of that, but there is something that happens to you when you truly become vulnerable in your intimate moments with God. When I thought of how much He loves me and how He helped me through my lowest moments, I couldn’t help but cry and feel so grateful. I wanted more of God and yet I didn’t trust Him.
I am still in awe and speechless about the past 3 days! My heart is full and my burden is light. 21 years of holding onto abuse, neglect, anger, bitterness and pain was all let go. I had no idea that I was still holding onto all of these things. Why did I feel the need to carry it? I told God, if the Holy Ghost is for everyone then I want it, have all of me. Give me vision, heighten my senses towards things happening in the spirit realm and take full control of my life and yet I felt something holding me back. Anger clutched in my fist and fear of being hurt felt like a lump in my chest. I wanted nothing to come between me and God and so I pressed forward towards the front of the church letting God know that I was welcoming a shift to take place in my life because it starts with me. I wanted Him to see that my heart and soul is willing, but I was scared of being hurt and I didn’t know why. So with a clinched fist, tightened jaw and stiff legs, I pushed myself to do what I knew was best for me, let go!
See there was this Fire Conference that was hosted by Pastor Matthew Stevenson and I have never heard this man preach/teach none of that, but I like going to conferences and retreats because I feel renewed and it helps me to reevaluate my life during these events. What I experienced at this conference changed my life. I will never be the same and if you were there you can attest to this.
Pastor Matthew Stevenson said in a post “Pain is not something that’s easily hidden. When not confronted the right way, it just hides in your personality or seeks an opening in your habits! Your soul will find an anesthesia because it wasn’t meant to live in pain but its progression will ruin everything around you! Whatever you are healed from, you have authority over! Just because you don’t feel it, doesn’t mean it’s not there! If you’re not whole, there are certain parts of your potential you won’t ever see!”
In my last article I talked about voids in your life and how we try to fill those voids with temporary fixes such as people, alcohol, drugs, etc, but only God can fill the void. Ask God to come in your heart, to be your Lord and Savior, to make you brand new. Repeat for your sins, knowingly and unknowingly and then connect with a church who can help you in building your relationship with God and learning the truth about this thing called life and all that God has for you.
By: EIC Le'Keshia Smith